Counting on God …

Saturday. Not my best day. I knew it was going to be a busy day so instead of sleeping in and taking the morning easy, I planned to “spring” out of bed and get the day rolling. By 745 a.m. I had breakfast going, coffee brewing, birthday packages wrapped and the dishwasher emptied. Felt pretty confident with the day; smooth sailing. And then, the kids came downstairs. Fighting, whining, fussing …. ugh. My house went from serenity to chaos in a matter of minutes. “Stop fighting.” Then, “No more whining, breakfast is almost ready.”  And it continued throughout breakfast until I eventually sent one to her room and the other to the hallway. And now, I was late. I had about 15 minutes to get ready, load the kids, load the gifts, and all other essentials for the day. Where did my morning go? My guess is that the minutes were lost somewhere between spilled milk and siblings pushing each other.

I huffed around the house and quickly gathered my things all while barking orders at the kids as they scrambled to get their shoes on and stay out of mommy’s way. I am sure I was not a pleasant sight. Once the kids were loaded in the car I ran back in to the house. “Remember, they learn from watching you and how you handle things”, I recalled {a recent statement made by hubby}.  While I didn’t totally appreciate the timing of this thought; it was true. They learn from watching me. And on Saturday morning, I was a poor example of handling stress and inconvenience.

As we started down the freeway my wise 6-year old asked if we could listen to some of her kids’ worship music. “Counting on God, please Mommy.” I pushed play. And then, I cried.

I’m in a fight not physical
And I’m in a war
But not with this world
You are the light that’s beautiful
And I want more
I want all that’s Yours

Joy unspeakable that won’t go away
And just enough strength
To live for today
So I never have to worry
What tomorrow will bring
‘Cause my faith is on solid rock
I am counting on God

Everyday we are in a war that is not of this world. We are in a war with the enemy. Dare I say, we are in a war with ourselves; our human nature. It is a constant battle of me {the human} verses God in me. My desire for selfish ambition is constantly fighting with my desire is to serve others and love them as I am called to love. When left to myself I will lose this battle EVERYTIME. I am not strong enough. I cannot rely on my education or even my most recent Bible study. I need new strength everyday. I lose my temper. I am impatient. I want it my way. How quickly I forget who I am in Christ. Do I really believe that I am a new creation? That I can walk in freedom from these traps that I so easily get tangled in?

That is why I was crying. I lost a battle. Instead of asking for God’s strength to help diffuse my kids , I reacted in my own strength and made a bigger mess that was followed by a lot of apologies both to God and my children. I need Him, there is no doubt about it. I ‘m counting on God to get through each day. Let’s be honest, I am counting on God to get me through my minutes!

I’m counting on God!

Happy Monday,

KC

2 Corinthians 5:17, “Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here!”

 

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9 Responses to Counting on God …

  1. Laura Putnam says:

    Thanks – I surely needed this today. Take care, Laura

  2. Lorraine says:

    Thank you for your message! It’s nice to know that I’m not the only mother that goes through that.

  3. Katy says:

    KC- I just have to say, I love the way you serve me! So many days your situations speak right into my life, and your words are exactly the inspiration I needed. Such a great reminder to just step back for a minute and remember the amazing words of God, or the encouragement of my husband or friend.

    Thank you!
    Katy

  4. Vivian Pattison says:

    This kind of battle applies to all ages. At 60 He is speaking to me in the same way. I love how God used a song, sweet Noe, and a circumstance to show His love for you all. I am going to share this on Wednesday Morning. In Luke 4:36 it shows just how powerful Jesus is with the evil one. 36 All the people were amazed and said to each other, “What words these are! With authority and power He gives orders to impure spirits(not proper) and they come out!” Keep it up dear daughter… You are a mighty woman warrior of GOD! Thanks for the awesome insight and honesty! I love you, Mom

  5. Holly F says:

    thanks so much for sharing this encouragement. our saturday morning went much the same way with me ending up apologizing for yelling at them for not getting it together to get out the door on time.

  6. Jennifer Fawbush says:

    Thank you! I needed to hear that!

  7. charis says:

    i really understand this struggle. many times i fail to be the example of the fruits of the Spirit to my kids. i think being a mom makes me realize how much i still need to grow in righteousness.

    my recent post: dreaming of a getaway

  8. Amalia says:

    Thank you for sharing this!!! I need to re-read it every morning! I am so thankful for tour blog!

  9. alison says:

    Thank you so much for this, just what I needed to read today.

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